I just gotta put it out there that even though we get pregnant, we're still human. I am still Mariel, always have been, always will be.
It seriously bugs that so many people i knew were like "Oh, if you ever need anything, im here. You can talk to me anytime" when really, they're in high school. They have their own lives to worry about, and they dont care about me, they just want to know the latest so they have something to tell people at school. They want to officially tell people that they talked to me and that i "said this" so they can look cool.
I am grateful for those people who truly are my friend and have done or do things with me, and im sorry if i offended any with what i just said, but really, it bugs that people ask me how i am because they feel they have to. Yeah, i have a child in me, and some people who i used to associate with, or anyone at my old high school (except you few who are cool and genuinely care about me) just look at me as a girl who got knocked up and think "Oh gosh, i cant believe she did that". But really, im going to have this baby, let Heather and Kirk raise him right, and move on. Im going to go to college, hopefully meet a guy, like, my life isn't over people. I made a mistake but im doing whats right and right now, im working my butt off going to school. Heck, im probably working harder than people who go to a real high school!
So yeah, im still human, i still like to hang out with people that aren't retarded, which i have found out a lot of people are, like they've never seen a pregnant person. We're in Utah, its not new people. Just because i have a little weight in the front doesn't mean i don't like to do the same things and that i don't enjoy people's company.
Heather is taking my mom and I to New Moon tomorrow, what?!?! Im so excited!!! See, i still like the same old things. Again, im still Mariel. But seriously, so freaking excited for New Moon. Im worried that it might be like Twilight, where you walk out thinking "..... what?" :)
Sorry, just had to let out some steam. The thing that started it was people at East Shore today. They help me think of so many ideas for shirts :)
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East Shore is a scary place dude! I did math packets there and its like walking into a room of black death. They stare at everyone like they've never seen a human being before. They obviously need to get out more often.
ReplyDeleteI know for a fact that many people miss you from school. Like ME! ;) But I'm happy to see that you're still going to graduate and all that jazz. Love ya!